Kirsten (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} badsugar) wrote,@ 2003-02-09 22:39:00 |
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Cute maybe?
poor me I have another ear ache. ugh. i've felt horrible all day. my throat has been bothering me...just glazed over and ill. i'm buried in snow, I can't believe how much snow we've had. amazing. so i'm feeling ill about things, and today i was thinking about the past and how things have gone. when i remember something that i have not thought of in a long time. the horrible feeling of them threatening personal things. i was thinking on something that i should not when i remembered that. i mean yes if follow thru and do good all is well but they always hang loved ones over head. then i started realizing why things have turned this way because i was never this way before. i had always been a peculiar way but never to this.
i cannot point blame and i don't but i do fear them. but then again who cares? there is so much to fear so why bother?
i hope that whatever is ailing me will pass tonight after some rest because i've just felt worse as the day has progressed. So I found my new raw award winner, its cutecouple.com. the members section is such a treat. hopefully i will update my raw site tomorrow with my new articles. everything is all set but i need to read thru it again because my head is just so fogged out today. so lovely me has been feeling t problems again. i know, i need a doctor. soon hopefully. but otherwise i think i've stayed clear.
i got this wonderful book at the library today...but i can't recall the name. maybe tomorrow i will tell you? yes.
so i go on this cutecouple.com site and i think oh how cute but then as i watch and look thru the photos i get this vibe...this relationship vibe. it feels DIRTY. something is out of place. cute comes off so well in photos, but cute is never real. images can always portray something different, of course. but anyway i'm looking at this site and i'm enjoying it but it reminds me of my x. i think of how things appeared to everyone else, but how everything really was. and ick. after almost a decade i was ready to call it quits so bad i could taste it. he was too but he practically cried when i told him. the weird thing was i was relieved, and i didn't cry till about a 3 weeks after. i miss having SOMEONE, but not him.
i love rambling. so i am tired and ready for zz's since i feel like dung. have a good night -
:)
"I'm as tired of poop" - Kirsten Fraser
poor me I have another ear ache. ugh. i've felt horrible all day. my throat has been bothering me...just glazed over and ill. i'm buried in snow, I can't believe how much snow we've had. amazing. so i'm feeling ill about things, and today i was thinking about the past and how things have gone. when i remember something that i have not thought of in a long time. the horrible feeling of them threatening personal things. i was thinking on something that i should not when i remembered that. i mean yes if follow thru and do good all is well but they always hang loved ones over head. then i started realizing why things have turned this way because i was never this way before. i had always been a peculiar way but never to this.
i cannot point blame and i don't but i do fear them. but then again who cares? there is so much to fear so why bother?
i hope that whatever is ailing me will pass tonight after some rest because i've just felt worse as the day has progressed. So I found my new raw award winner, its cutecouple.com. the members section is such a treat. hopefully i will update my raw site tomorrow with my new articles. everything is all set but i need to read thru it again because my head is just so fogged out today. so lovely me has been feeling t problems again. i know, i need a doctor. soon hopefully. but otherwise i think i've stayed clear.
i got this wonderful book at the library today...but i can't recall the name. maybe tomorrow i will tell you? yes.
so i go on this cutecouple.com site and i think oh how cute but then as i watch and look thru the photos i get this vibe...this relationship vibe. it feels DIRTY. something is out of place. cute comes off so well in photos, but cute is never real. images can always portray something different, of course. but anyway i'm looking at this site and i'm enjoying it but it reminds me of my x. i think of how things appeared to everyone else, but how everything really was. and ick. after almost a decade i was ready to call it quits so bad i could taste it. he was too but he practically cried when i told him. the weird thing was i was relieved, and i didn't cry till about a 3 weeks after. i miss having SOMEONE, but not him.
i love rambling. so i am tired and ready for zz's since i feel like dung. have a good night -
:)
"I'm as tired of poop" - Kirsten Fraser
