Kirsten's Journal

hi
I try to faithfully stand by your side. I try to be your friend. I have an opinion. What do I get? Okay so maybe I didn’t share so easily and I will agree with that but in the same breath you have been a hypocrite yourself. In ways that you deny and change with every explanation. Dwelling on this will only upset me further and at this point I just want to cry. Instead I have to go back to work. I needed a moment to gather my thoughts so I thought it would be best to do it here since I have not written in so long.

I will admit that I adore the journal when I never thought that I would. Guess why? This girl has no one to express her true feelings to. I wonder, is everyone else like that? Do they have no one too but they just forge on and deal with that with ease? Or do they have a sounding board.

What I hate is when I talk ill of someone in a cruel manner. How can I do that? How can you do that about someone you care about? There was one person I know who would NEVER talk bad of others and I loved that about him. When I first met him I didn’t know what to think of that because all my friends were sadly gossip mongers, including myself. This was years ago.

I’ve been thinking about writing a short story. About a teenage girl in high school and the events of one day…blah blah blah. That is what I feel like so I’m going to get to work.

By the way I feel better now that I sounded off and now I’m wondering how my counter part above feels. I feel bad now and I wonder if I was too harsh. I hate that about me.