Kirsten's Journal

Nobody ever died of laughter
This is a vent:

Waited for a long time. Oh well. I can't dwell. I was going to rant and rave and go on about it. But it such a waste. It creates so much negative energy.

I'm having trouble letting go of anger. I think its because of a specific event but the truth is that I'm not even sure. I don't know? Its kind of hard to figure that stuff out. So I've been trying to be positive. I've realized that the majority of my conversations lead to ........

disparaging remarks about other people.

I know.

I'm trying to change that. I dislike how gossipy I am. I'm working at being more aware of the things that I say. Sometimes I forget. I let my ANGER, or HURT fly away with me. So I do the best that I can.

I didn't expect the sun and the moon. But I had high hopes. Now I'm not sure. I know I need to put things in order for me. I know I need to change things. I do not like that my sites are on the negative side. I need to make a choice.

I wonder what will happen with the move? I wonder if all this stuff happening is a SIGN? Do you believe in signs? I don't think I do. I'd like to. I think I do when they are blatant. Then I again this would be very obvious, I guess the truth is that we make up own truth. We see what we want. If it was a sign for one direction but we desperately wanted the other we would not see the sign out of lust for the other. Or something like that.

So I've been enjoying my book by Sylvia Boorstein, its buddhism americanized. Which is rather delightful and interesting. Wow, I can't believe it. I just had some MIND blowing information, that I really can't even fathom. I need to cut this short because I'm really blown away.

"Nobody ever died of laughter." -Max Beerbohm